Wow has it been a long two months. So much has went on. We were moving fast down the adoption road looking at children then so much changed. I went to the doctor for a something minor which turned out to be something not minor at all. Without boring you it lead to about 50 test. It put adoption right out of our minds. I threw away every paper I had. I cleared away my adoption table. Well, months ago there was this beautiful little girl that I fell in love with from moment 1. I called about her and was put on "the list", way down at the bottom. I called and called. She was with family after family. Then out of the blue one morning I got an email that said, Dear Jeremy and Jamie : here is Jaci's medical file that you have been waiting for. No, not now. The timing is horrible. I can't take it. We were waiting for results to see if I had liver cancer. And, we had to tell them in 3 days if we wanted her. So, we had to turn her down. I was heartbroken. The following week my results came back in and I was fine. We called the agency and Jaci was with another family. We had to wait for them to decide and they didn't take her, so we put in our papers and now we have a lock on her. YEAH!!! so we are filling out the paper work trying to get our waiver from China. After all that China could still turn us down because of my seizures. But, we don't accept that . She is meant to be ours. I have known it all along. Sorry this is so long.